I don’t want to see anyone. I lie in the bedroom with the curtains drawn and nothingness washing over me like a sluggish wave. Whatever is happening to me is my own fault. I have...

For I may fall and I may fail but I will stand again each time and you will find no satisfaction.

It’s an unfortunate word, ‘depression’, because the illness has nothing to do with feeling sad, sadness is on the human palette. Depression is a whole other beast. It’s when your old personality has left town...

On an incredibly simplistic level, you can think of depression as occurring when your cortex thinks an abstract thought and manages to convince the rest of the brain that this is as real as a...

He was troubled; this brain, so limpid in its blindness, had lost its transparency; there was a cloud in this crystal.

I had never heard her sound so calm, so resigned to her fate. She said she was neither happy nor unhappy, and that was why she couldn’t go on.

I thought the most beautiful thing in the world must be shadow, the million moving shapes and cul-de-sacs of shadow. There was shadow in bureau drawers and closets and suitcases, and shadow under houses and...

for a moment, she let herself be defeated, wished herself not exactly annihilation but into a temporary absense, into being nowhere and no one just for a little while.

Is death the final step in live? Or is there something after death? Heaven? Hell? Yes, I have done some bad things, I’m a sinner! But, does I pay for my crimes in this live?...

Recession is when your neighbor loses his job. Depression is when you lose yours. And recovery is when Jimmy Carter loses his.

I thought to myself: if it’s true that every person has a star in the sky, mine must be distant, dim, and absurd. Perhaps I never had a star.

It gets harder as times go by, because memory is the first casualty of manic depression. When I’m manic, all I remember is the moment. When I’m depressed, all I remember is the pain. The...

When you are aligned with the truth of who you truly are, then you experience bliss.

Wanting to die (or ‘suicidal ideation’as the experts would have it) goes hand in hand with the illness. It is a symptom of severe depression, not a character failing or moral flaw. Nor is it,...

A disruption of the circadian cycle—the metabolic and glandular rhythms that are central to our workaday life—seems to be involved in many, if not most, cases of depression; this is why brutal insomnia so often...

Owen: depressed people don’t have the energy to kill themselves. that’s what mr clark saidOwen: he said it’s not when people are depressed that you have to worry about them. it’s when someone depressed suddenly...

I feel like people around me are betters voting on the wrong horse in the race. I am that horse, always failing to make others win.

Why can’t I remember our family Christmas, or a warm spring day, or anything that might have been pleasant? It is as though the filter of recall is itself altered, so that it blocks out...

Ivanov: With a heavy head, with a slothful spirit, exhausted, overstretched, broken, without faith, without love, without a goal, I roam like a shadow among men and I don’t know who I am, why I’m...

People with family histories of alcoholism tend to have lower levels of endorphins- the endogenous morphine that is responsible for many of our pleasure responses- than do people genetically disinclined to alcoholism. Alcohol will slightly...

It’s so hard to find the place somewhere in the middle of the best and worst I’ve felt.

They’re the perfect loving fam’ly, so adoring…And I love them ev’ry day of ev’ry week.So my son’s a little shit, my husband’s boring,And my daughter, though a genius, is a freak.

I am not manic-just happy. It has been such a long time since I was happy. Please join me on my magic carpet for now.

Verden var et jævelig sted, det hendte så mye som jeg verken kunne begripe eller forstå.

The same sensitivity that opens artists to Being also makes them vulnerable to the dark powers of non-Being. It is no accident that many creative people–including Dante, Pascal, Goethe, Nietzsche, Kierkegaard, Beethoven, Rilke, Blake, and...

They scold their own hearts but it actuates no real change, only deepens the wound. But they can’t look away from it. Thus, by paralyzing their Present, we beat The Adversary on His home turf....

Depression, we are told over and over again, is a brain disease, a chemical imbalance that can be adjusted by antidepressant medication. In an informational brochure issued to inform the public about depression, the US...

…occasionally I wished I could walk through a picture window and have the sharp, broken shards slash me to ribbons so I would finally look like I felt.

Depression isn’t just being a bit sad. It’s feeling nothing. It’s not wanting to be alive anymore.

So you try to think of someone else you’re mad at, and the unavoidable answer pops into your little warped brain: everyone.

The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems...

Power as a beneficial tool for aspiring achievers is primarily made up into four folds;1. Power to control emotions,2. Power to make right decisions,3. Power to stand against depression,4. Power to excel in innovations.

There are always those to whom all self-revelation is contemptible, unless it ends with a noble thanks to the gods for the Unconquerable Soul.

If you fall in darkness, there will be light. If your fall enter depression, there is some sort of happiness. Fall but get up. Weak but be strong. Life is just beginning

I cried until my eyes swelled shut, and then I slept, a black, dreamless sleep from which I awoke amazingly refreshed, at least until I remembered.

The days and the light feel like brief moments of torture, put here to remind us of what we don’t have any more. Joy is instantaneous, that, is the wonder of joy. Misery and suffering...

Es ist nicht leicht in Berlin, und das Leben fordert den ganzen Menschen. Das Jahr geht vom Winterschlaf in die Frühjahrsmüdigkeit, von der Frühjahrsmüdigkeit ins Sommerloch, vom Sommerloch in die Herbstdepression und dann direkt in...

My life outlook isn’t cloudy. That’s just the weather report for the rest of my life.

The vision of this massive body of water with towering monoliths jutting straight upward to the heavens, stole our ability to think.Colors that made the wildflowers look dull, streaked up and down across the great...

I have this beast. He comes and goes at will.Silence.He’s very powerful.Silence.He has control over me.Silence.I want to come and go at will.Silence.I want to be the powerful one.

…even my work, the largest of the pots and pans I’d placed under my life’s leaking ceiling, had become to small to contain my misery.

The wordlessness of depression is a galling experience. You can’t phone your friends, writing an e-mail is beyond you, you can’t put pen to paper. The disease is a crash course in meaninglessness, lack of...

Depression is like war. You either win or you die trying. There’s no in between.

There’s actually a sort of comfort in the belief that things can only get worse. It gives one an appreciation for the here-and-now, knowing that each and every moment may be as good as its...

If depression was a choice, no one would choose it. Depression is not a choice.

This is what Helen has learned: it is possible to be so tired you cannot reach for the sky, you cannot breathe. You can’t even talk. You can’t pick up the phone. You can’t do...

I wanted to tell people, “My depression is acting up today” as an excuse for not seeing them, but I never managed to pull it off.

RebukeObstinate regressionbringing untold pathsof deep dark forebodingdepression…

Don’t try to impress a loser because If one is not happy about the things happening in their life, one cannot be happy about the things happening in someone else’s life.

I could watch him do this until morning — never asking questions and never interrupting his work. I worship quietly — his intense focus and attention to detail and then, out of no where, I...