My mother smiled. “I knew my baby wasn’t like that.”I looked at her. “Like what?””Like those awful people. Those awful dead people at that hospital.” She paused. “I knew you’d decide to be all right...

Yes, I was infatuated with you: I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn’t stand being a passing fancy....

I’ll never speak to God again.

Stasis in darkness.Then the substanceless blue

I felt Mr Willard had deserted me. I thought he must have planned it all along, but Buddy said No, his father simply couldn’t stand the sight of sickness and especially his own son’s sickness,...

Mrs Guinea answered my letter and invited me to lunch at her home. That was where I saw my first finger-bowl.The water had a few cherry blossoms floating in it, and I thought it must...

She stared at her reflection in the glossed shop windows as if to make sure, moment by moment, that she continued to exist.

Neurotic, ha!” I let out a scornful laugh. “If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I’m neurotic as hell. I’ll be flying back and forth between one...

So much working, reading, thinking, living to do! A lifetime is not long enough.

let me live, love, and say it well in good sentences

You must create the right kind of dream, the sober, adult kind of magic: illusion born from disillusion.

because wherever I sat—on the deck of a ship or at a street café in Paris or Bangkok—I would be sitting under the same glass bell jar, stewing in my own sour air.

Then I thought, “No, I broke it myself. I broke it on purpose to pay myself back for being such a heel.

If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I’m neurotic as hell. I’ll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest...

I never feel so much myself as when I’m in a hot bath.I lay in that tub on the seventeenth floor of this hotel for-women-only, high up over the jazz and push of New York,...

I am not cruel —only truthful.

I am terrified by this dark thingThat sleeps in me;All day I feel its soft, feathery turnings, its malignity.

August rain: the best of the summer gone, and the new fall not yet born. The odd uneven time.

I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing in me like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full.

Perhaps some day I’ll crawl back home, beaten, defeated. But not as long as I can make stories out of my heartbreak, beauty out of sorrow.

Well, I know now. I know a little more how much a simple thing like a snowfall can mean to a person

I have never found anybody who could stand to accept the daily demonstrative love I feel in me, and give back as good as I give.

What I fear most, I think, is the death of the imagination.

The still watersWrap my lips,Eyes, nose and ears,A clearCellophane I cannot crack.

I can’t deceive myself that out of the bare stark realization that no matter how enthusiastic you are, no matter how sure that character is fate, nothing is real, past or future, when you are...

I’m not sure why it is, but I love food more than just about anything else.

The moon is my mother. She is not sweet like Mary.Her blue garments unloose small bats and owls.

You will never win anyone through pity. You must create the right kind of dream, the sober, adult kind of magic: illusion born from disillusion.

Oh, something is there, waiting for me. Perhaps someday the revelation will burst in upon me and I will see the other side of this monumental grotesque joke. And then I’ll laugh. And then I’ll...

Some things are hard to write about. After something happens to you, you go to write it down, and either you over dramatize it, or underplay it, exaggerate the wrong parts or ignore the important...

Stupid girl. You will never win anyone through pity. You must create the right kind of dream, the sober, adult kind of magic: illusion born from disillusion.

I thought the most beautiful thing in the world must be shadow, the million moving shapes and cul-de-sacs of shadow. There was shadow in bureau drawers and closets and suitcases, and shadow under houses and...

I think writers are the most narcissistic people. Well, I musn’t say this, I like many of them, a great many of my friends are writers.

With me, the present is forever, and forever is always shifting, flowing, melting. This second is life. And when it is gone it is dead. But you can’t start over with each new second. You...

I began to think vodka was my drink at last. It didn’t taste like anything, but it went straight down into my stomach like a sword swallowers’ sword and made me feel powerful and godlike.

I felt my lungs inflate with the onrush of scenery—air, mountains, trees, people. I thought, “This is what it is to be happy.

Stars open among the lilies.Are you not blinded by such expressionless sirens?This is the silence of astounded souls.

Then it hit me and I just blurted, ‘I like people too much or not at all. I’ve got to go down deep, to fall into people, to really know them.

I have the choice of being constantly active and happy or introspectively passive and sad. Or I can go mad by ricocheting in between…I am still so naïve; I know pretty much what I like...

Its snaky acids kiss.It petrifies the will. These are the isolate, slow faults That kill, that kill, that kill.

This is my first snow at Smith. It is like any other snow, but from a different window, and there lies the singular charm of it.

How we need another soul to cling to, another body to keep us warm. To rest and trust; to give your soul in confidence: I need this, I need someone to pour myself into.

LADY LAZARUSI have done it again.One year in every tenI manage it–A sort of walking miracle, my skinBright as a Nazi lampshade,My right footA paperweight,My face a featureless, fineJew linen.Peel off the napkinO my enemy.Do...

brave love, dreamnot of staunching such strict flame, but come,lean to my wound; burn on, burn on.

When they asked me what I wanted to be I said I didn’t know.

I don’t know what I ate, but I felt immensely better after the first mouthful. It occurred to me that my vision of the fig-tree and all the fat figs that withered and fell to...

And the danger is that in this move toward new horizons and far directions, that I may lose what I have now, and not find anything except loneliness.

There is no living being on earth at this moment except myself. I could walk down the halls, and empty rooms would yawn mockingly at me from every side. God, but life is loneliness, despite...

I may never be happy, but tonight I am content. Nothing more than an empty house, the warm hazy weariness from a day spent setting strawberry runners in the sun, a glass of cool sweet...

I want to write because I have the urge to excel in one medium of translation and expression of life. I can’t be satisfied with the colossal job of merely living. Oh, no, I must...