She had a sense of herself being brain dead: running on tubes and machines.

I know what it’s like to sleep in fear, to starve myself to be worthy, to be ashamed of my voice, to want to sleep forever. To question why I deserve to live.

mi rostro? un cero disimulado..

Hard work does not go unnoticed,and someday the rewards will follow

Why not risk your life, if you don’t want to live anyway? Why not risk your life if you’ll never be happy no matter what you do?

It’s disappointing to feel sad for no reason. Sadness can be almost pleasantly indulgent when you have a way to justify it.

An event of great agony is bearable only in the belief that it will bring about a better world. When it does not, as in the aftermath of another vast calamity in 1914-18, disillusion is...

I hate going back. I’d rather live at the bottom of my river of black, dragged this way and that by the forces that be, than go back there. Those forty-eight hours took twenty years...

I didn’t want to fall in love. Looking at you gave me chills and kissing you made my knees weak. You made flowers grow and fill the space in my lungs which made it impossible...

The problem with growing up fearing and expecting rejection is that you cannot enter into adult relationship in the expectation of happiness.

He felt full of a dense and sour substance that was blocking his chest, and it wasn’t grief. After all those years, life now seemed like no more than a trap, a maze, not even...

But day after day of depression, the kind that doesn’t seem to merit carting me off to a hospital but allows me to sit here on this stoop in summer camp as if I were...

If someone told me that I could live my life again free of depression provided I was willing to give up the gifts depression has given me–the depth of awareness, the expanded consciousness, the increased...

If you feel depressed for an hour, you’ve produced approximately eighteen billion new cells that have more receptors calling out for depressed-type peptides and fewer calling out for feel-good peptides.

Give me my heart; I am killing my existence without it.

Your flesh is not a reflection of your soul. So when you look in the mirror, remember that your light outshines your flaws.

Ian was living in fairyland and in our own way we all helped him to stay there.

The picture of helpless indolence she calls herselfsublimely helpless and impotentI had done living I thoughtWas ever life so like death before? My face was so close against the tombstones, that there seemed no room...

Chronic trauma (according to the meaning I propose) that occurs early in life has profound effects on personality development and can lead to the development of dissociative identity disorder (DID), other dissociative disorders personality disorders,...

There’s a boy whose affection I am determined to hunt down and kill. It used to be material objects I felt I needed to be happy. It would make me feel stable if I had...

A brick could help me hold down a job. Hey, in an economy as bad as this, every little bit helps.

Great Outdoors”places me in a different tonal mood, filledup with hope and passion, not resentful,suppressed relics of anger unresolvedDid you listen to the winds?What did you hear?Did you listen to the trees?What knowledge did they...

Regret is her companion and the one who whispers to her often. She has even let hope die and that brings about despair.

Depression/The assassin inside me

For those living in a dark cave… sometimes all it takes is for someone to throw us a lifeline.

I hope you see what you’ve done to me.

It’s brilliant, being depressed; you can behave as badly as you like.

Avoidance therapy does not work. One major reason for that is because Avoidance Therapy (diversion, think yourself happy, positive affirmations) is predicated on the validity of ‘Failure of Will.’ Depression is not a choice.

If you only knew how to respect my heart, I wouldn’t have found a reason to let you go.

She remembered how it had felt and tasted, that slowly descending depression, like a thick glass jar that closed around you, sucking away the air you needed to breathe, creating a barrier between you and...

Where does one go from the bottom? You hit the bottom of the well and what? People say the only place to go is up, but they seem to ignore how long you can spend...

Perhaps depression is caused by asking oneself too many unanswerable questions.

A melancholy-looking man, he had the appearance of one who has searched for the leak in life’s gas-pipe with a lighted candle.

Let this time in your life cut you open and drain all of the things that are holding you back. I’m going to help you forgive the things that you won’t let yourself forget.

I’m going inside of myself and never coming out.

Your eye will no longer linger on the light, it will no longer trace constellations. You’ll care only about the darkness and you’ll watch it for hours, for days, maybe even for years, trying in...

No amount of love can cure madness or unblacken one’s dark moods. Love can help, it can make the pain more tolerable, but, always, one is beholden to medication that may or may not always...

Fear tugs at me and I’m falling.I grab at the mattress, dig in with my fingers, flop onto my stomach, hold tight. Press my face into the pillow so hard it hurts. The quilt twists...

Don’t forget:Ruts aren’t that much different . . .from graves.

Discouragement, fear, and depression—three villains who lurk in the dark.They slip inside souls with a blindfold and goals to shatter your dreams and extinguish your spark.Their tactics are highly effective.They crush a great many each...

I wonder now whether inner coldness and desolation may not be the pre-condition for making the world believe, by a kind of fraudulent showmanship, that one’s own wretched heart is still aglow.

If you suffer from depression, anything that makes you feel has to the most important thing in your life, because it’s the only thing that can save you.

Depression makes me stronger

He was visited by grief,” because that’s really what it is. Grief is its own thing. It’s not like it’s in me and I’m going to deal with it. It’s a thing, and you have...

There are only two profound ways to reach enlightenment: Laugh by yourself, or get tickled.

Most parents try really hard to give their kids the best possible life. They give them the best food and clothes they can afford, take their own kind of take on training kids to be...

Our culture treats people with depression is as if there is something wrong with them; a biological imbalance best treated with medication. But if it’s impossible to understand biology outside the context of environment, and...

She was—of course—perfectly normal—quiet and polite andreasonablyintelligent and…normal andself destructive and lonelyand terrified of everythingAnd she lovedDisaster—

Why can’t I just have a good time? Why can’t I get on with it?

The rain fell like dead bullets.