I mean, you know—like, a cute beast. A little beast that tears shit up and breaks the earth and sucks the life out of people.

Shut up, Kenji,” he repeats in a whiny voice, mocking me.

And I do. I do wonder, I think about it all the time. What it would be like to kill myself. Because I never really know, I still can’t tell the difference, I’m never quite...

I do know that I don’t want to wake him.We were up very late last night.

I’m trying to focus, telling myself these are just empty words, but I’m lying. Because somehow, just reading these words is too much; and the thought of her in pain is causing me an unbearable...

His hands are holding my cheeks, and he pulls back just to look me in the eye and his chest is heaving and he says, “I think,” he says, “my heart is going to explode,”...

I never thought it would get this bad. I never thought the Reestablishment would take things so far. They’re incinerating culture, the beauty of diversity. The new citizens of our world will be reduced to...

Oh God—”He kisses me again, this time stronger,desperate, like he has to have me, like he’s dying to memorize the feel of my lips against his own. The taste of him is making me crazy;...

The only existence I know now is the one I was given. An echo of what used to be.

I touch the tip of my finger to his lips. “There are secrets in here,” I say. “I want them out.”He tries to bite my finger.I steal it back.

I can’t be my own person, if i constantly require someone else to hold me together.

Please,” he says. “I’m begging you to stop.”I still. “I can’t stomach your pain,” he says. “I can feel it so strongly and it’s making me crazy- please,” he says to me. “Don’t be sad....

I sigh. “I don’t know what’s happening to me.””They’re called hormones.”I shoot him a dirty look. “I’m serious.””Me too.” He cocks his head at me. “That’s like, biological and shit. Scientific. Maybe your lady bits...

I feel like I’ve been split open and stuffed with sunshine.

I keep sniffing my skin, pleasantly surprised by how nice it is to smell like a flower. I’ve never smelled like anything before.

Lift your hips for me, love.