But the most important thing I know is that I want the possibility of you more than the reality of [her].

I was deluded, and I knew it. Worse: my love for Pippa was muddied-up below the waterline with my mother, with my mother’s death, with losing my mother and not being able to get her...

The biggest lie women tell themselves about men: When I get what I want, I will be happy.

For doting, not for loving, pupil mine.