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Now I have more freedom than I have ever had at any time in my life, and I do only the things I always have. They were empty before, but Selina has given a meaning to them, I do them for her. I am waiting, for her – but, waiting, I think, is too poor a word for it. I am engaged with the substance of the minutes as they pass. I feel the surface of my flesh stir – it is like the surface of the sea that knows the moon is drawing near it. If I take up a book, I might as well never have seen a line of print before – books are filled, now, with messages aimed only at me. An hour ago, I found this:The blood is listening in my frame,And thronging shadows, fast and thick,Fall on my overflowing eyes…It is as if every poet who ever wrote a line to his own love wrote secretly for me, and for Selina. My blood – even as I write this – my blood, my muscle and every fibre of me, is listening, for her. When I sleep, it is to dream of her. When shadows move across my eye, I know them now for shadows of her. My room is still, but never silent – I hear her heart, beating across the night in time to my own. My room is dark, but darkness is different for me now. I know all its depths and textures – darkness like velvet, darkness like felt, darkness bristling as coir or prison wool.

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