In some ways, I am able to feel more like a part of my family while I am missing them. It's normal to feel lonely when you are away from your loved ones, but it's queer to feel lonely while surrounded by family.
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In some ways, I am able to feel more like a part of my family while I am missing them. It’s normal to feel lonely when you are away from your loved ones, but it’s queer to feel lonely while surrounded by family.

-Rebecca Behrens

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