Maybe it’s time to stop being a soldier and go home to be a father. And a husband for Deanna. I’m not sure how.

Evan no longer tells people I fight bad guys for a living. When asked, he tells his friends that his dad talks on the phone a lot and vacuums on occasion.

I will always hate war, but will be forever proud of mine.

I am a Christian, but my time in Iraq has convinced me that God doesn’t want to hear from me anymore. I’ve done things that He can never forgive. I’ve done them consciously. I’ve made...

Yeah, I know they do, Evan.

Are you okay, man?””Yeah, I’m good.”It’s a lie. I wonder if I will ever be good again.