I replay the scene again and again, the broken mashed-up face looming over me, the knowledge between the two of us that I’d done it. That act of kindness is still more unfathomable to me...

Jude taught me what love was: to be willing to hold on to another person’s pain. That’s it.

That’s how you avoid becoming a moth,” he says. “Stop asking others what to believe. Figure it out for yourself.