You can see what it meant to me. The frustration and relief all came out of me. It feels good to be back on a football pitch.

When I think about it, I feel like I betrayed Bobby Robson. That’s the worst thing about it.

He treated me like a son and I let him down. I must take some responsibility for him getting the sack. I regret letting him down so much.

We’re team-mates and we have disagreements, but we shouldn’t fight in front of 50,000 people